exciting news!

So, if you were around Facebook or Instagram yesterday, you have likely heard our big news already: we are expecting Baby #6 in June!  We are really excited.  I had my first prenatal appointment last week, and got to see the nugget in a quick ultrasound scan, and it was so surreal.  It's amazing how the excitement really doesn't diminish with each subsequent kid - every single time, I find myself totally blown away by the miracle and blessing and strangeness of the concept of a new, tiny little person, just doing its own tiny thing somewhere deep in the wilderness of my guts.

All that being said, I am also constantly blown away and surprised by how difficult early pregnancy is.  There really is this amnesia that kicks in in between pregnancies that makes you think, "It can't possibly have been that bad.  It wasn't debilitating.  It wasn't all-consuming.  It was hard, yeah, but I took it in stride and can do it again."  And then cold reality slaps you in your sweaty, barf-crusted face and you're like, "HOW DID I NOT SEE THIS COMING?!"

Over the last two and a half months, I have likely averaged about twelve hours a day lying on the couch, watching Call the Midwife.  The only liquid I can keep down with any level of consistency is RC Cola, and even with that, I'm getting pretty seriously dehydrated.  Heaven forbid I eat anything for breakfast other than bacon, or I will spend the day tossing my cookies.  And we've probably dropped over a hundred bucks at McDonald's on (muffin-less) Sausage and Egg McMuffins, because this baby is clearly a foodie.  I have never felt less like Audrey Hepburn in my life, which is saying something, because I've never actually felt remotely like her.

I won't lie to you, it's been hard.  And I think you can probably figure out why I have been much more sporadic on the blog over the last few months.  I'm hoping it will get better soon - I'm now fourteen weeks, and I'm having longer stretches of manageable days in between the days where I'm basically a lifeless carcass, but I'm not out of the woods yet.  So continue to bear with me, and hopefully we can get things back onto a more regular track soon!